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February 21, 2002

Yesss!!

Yeesssss!! The new Trillian update is out! Go get it!!

I'm so excited!! They DID it! What geniuses...

Posted by Jewels at 09:10 PM | Comments (0)

Freakish behavior

Sometimes I think I'm the only one in the world that had freakish thoughts at the grocery store. I went to Wal Mart, & was so glad to be there without the kids (I lied & said I was going back to work!) Anyhow, I was feeling pretty giddy, I guess...

So I'm walking around the frozen food isle, since I needed something fast it was already 5:30. Bob said to get something "good, but not fattening" yeah, ok. Mission impossible. So I'm looking all confused & this guy walks by, stops, turns around & looks at me. Walks & then stops again & says "Hi!! Can I help you find something?" I'm thinking in my mind "yeah, help me find something fast, not fattening & good." Which at the time, seemed quite amusing, I don't know why. So, I just looked at him & stated cracking up & said no, I'm fine.

Then I get over by the Milk & coffee creamer section. I open the door & someones back there pushing all the creamers forward to make room to add more & I wanted so bad to just poke my finger in there & start pushing them back & see what they would do. But, since I'm not 4, & not employed by Mtv...I decided against it.

So I wandered around the rest of the time cracking up all by myself...everyone must have thought I was nuts. Or drunk, or something.

Posted by Jewels at 08:21 PM | Comments (0)

Colorgenics again...

Here's my colorgenics report for today... I can't believe how accurate these things are!

Presently, you are trying to break away from a situation that is causing you considerable worry and concern. Things are getting on top of you and you are feeling depressed almost to breaking point.Obviously there must be a way out - but at this time the solution seems to be escaping you. You want to "get away from it all" and as a consequence you appear to be sullen, introverted and refuse to get involved in any discussion or arguments which could aggravate the situation. Accept the fact that "as you feel - so your body will respond"... and so therefore "pretend" to the world about you that everything is going beautifully and if you act as if "all is going well" everything will, whether you believe it or not, will work out as you would like it to.

You like the better things in life. You are sensuous and emotional. You are a follower of the Arts ... and you seek an environment that will give you the fulfilment to the senses that you need.

Every thing seems to have gone wrong and the situation at this time is such that you are not quite sure which way to turn. So it would appear that you are "holding back" re-consolidating your position relinquishing all fun and games for the time being.

Your inherent powers and perseverance are in danger of being overwhelmed by excessive stress. You have a great deal of resilience which is being overtaxed by the continued attempt to overcome existing difficulties. But you are sticking to your objectives in spite of the intolerable pressure. After considerable reflection you believe that it is impossible to reverse the situation and so you would truly like to be free of it altogether.

You seem to be always on the defensive and that is because you have failed to establish yourself in a manner consistent with your own high opinion of yourself. You are trying to prove yourself with inadequate resources, and this has resulted in considerable stress. You are trying to escape from these excessive demands on your reserves by adopting a defensive attitude in which you refuse to be committed or to be involved in further unpleasantness.

Posted by Jewels at 07:58 PM | Comments (0)

Epilstop

I was thinking of buying some Epilstop since they are now selling it @ wallyworld...thank God I saw this first! I can just see me now all burned & spotted. I think those infomercials need to be monitored better...who cares if they ARE paying for the time! Geeze!

Also, here is a review of Nads, which I bought a similar dealie @ Walmart too...but it was from Sally Hensen, & I thought maybe it wasn't the same, but it sure sounds the same! Yikes.

Now it makes me wonder about that Proactive infomercial...I'm going to investigate. Brb. Ok, doesn't look TOO bad... but the last infomercial I saw had Vanessa Williams on it... Gonna keep looking.

Don't know...I'm still undecided about it, (What am I the infomercial slueth?!) but this board is kind of funny... in a weird-acne sort of way? Yikes.

Posted by Jewels at 04:18 PM | Comments (0)

How cute

Miranda came up with little names for everybody yesterday...

Brayden is "pretty"

Bobby is "handsome"

Daddy is "cool"

Mommy is "the Queen"

& she is "Cutest"

She cracks me up!!

Posted by Jewels at 03:58 PM | Comments (0)

February 19, 2002

Can't Sleep

Can't sleep. Have a migraine... Thinking in non-complete sentences too I guess. I was watching the news, but my mind was not all there. I kept thinking 'wonder what font that is?' 'I wonder what they use pc's or macs'...

Yup just got disconnected from AOL on Trill again. grrr.... Really bugs me. Do you realize that there are now 21 pages on the Trillian/AOL discussion board?!

I'm gonna put my Trillicon here again, just because I like looking at it... I really need to get a life.

Ok...so I'm thinking of making a page to set as my home page with a bunch of links I use... BUT since everyone in my house uses this computer every stinkin day... maybe that's a bad idea. I spose I could migrate all my links from the tool bar to a page & go there instead of clicking on the links button... but is it really saving me time? I dunno. I'm going to bed.

Posted by Jewels at 11:43 PM | Comments (0)

February 18, 2002

Update

Just a quick update: Yes, my Mom has breast cancer. :'( She had a partial mastectomy this morning, & the Dr. thinks she will do fine. We will know more on Wednesday after the results from her lymph nodes come back. The Dr. said he thinks she may just need radiation, & not chemo. So that all sounds good...so long as it's correct. I'm really trying to think positive, no use in worrying over something I can't control...

Miranda learned how to whistle this morning! (She's 4) My little sweet baby. We went to Wal-Mart & I bought her some new "leg-ons" (tights. Leg-ons is a combination of Leggings & Nylons I think....silly girl).

I bought a bottle of perfume from a pregnant lady selling it in the parking lot. Is that bad? I mean, she needed the money, & I needed perfume. So, it all works out. :) I haven't told Bob yet... but, no point in him worrying about things he can't control either. Right? ;)

Well, I'm gonna go read about this mastectomy thing... I miss my Mom!! :(

Posted by Jewels at 09:13 PM | Comments (0)

February 16, 2002

aagghhh

Yeah, whatever...

I was reading posts on Trillians site all day.... now the big dilemma starts: Do I re-log in to the AOL client? No. But since my sister & best friend use AOL, I can't talk to them anymore... ICQ, owned by AOL... MSN, hmmm..??? Yahoo...probably. Too bad I just uninstalled it. Man this sucks.

Posted by Jewels at 12:09 AM | Comments (0)

February 14, 2002

Trillicon

So, I made my first buddy icon for Trillian. I'm calling it a "Trillicon". Heh. I'm tired, so here it is if you wanna grab it...

Nite. ;)

Posted by Jewels at 11:07 PM | Comments (0)

My head is full of air...

Ok... my mind is gone for sure. I was just thinking...wouldn't it be funny if someones server crashed & their blog was down, & they got all sad & started singing "Where oh where has my little blog gone....where oh where can it be?..."

Yeah Jewels....hysterical. Go back to work.

Posted by Jewels at 12:09 PM | Comments (0)

Happy Valentines Day!

Just a couple quick things:

1. Happy Valentines Day!

2. I won't know anything about my Moms condition until Monday :( Please pray for her...

3. I added a comments link, but can't figure out how to get the form there...sooo that will be there later I guess. I'm not in the right state of mind right now to be doing any thinking.

4. Miranda is feeling better, but still has a bad cough.

5. Drinking coffee is bad. It gives me the shakes... I need half decaf I guess.

Gotta eat & get back to work.

Posted by Jewels at 11:49 AM | Comments (0)

February 13, 2002

Just when you think...

Just when you think things can't get any worse, the Dr. tells your Mom he thinks she has breast cancer & you are still 24 hours away....

Then your head starts spinning, & you stop & realize everything that appears to be going wrong in your life is going wrong even more so in someone elses & you need to stop being such a baby & start doing what you can to be there & be strong, & to go on with the life that you do have...so you can be there for the other people too.

More later I gotta go to work.

Posted by Jewels at 09:13 AM | Comments (0)

February 11, 2002

Bored

I'm bored. Should be cleaning... but it's ok because I'm eating lunch. A few things I don't understand...

The "Mighty Kids" Meal @ Mc.Donalds... ok, there IS NO mighty kid chicken nugget meal here (in Colorado). I still don't get it. I tried ordering one & I don't think they understood either. Mumbled something about the same size, but now every regular chicken nugget Happy Meal I order shows up on the monitor as a Mighty Nugget Meal. Which, in theory, does not exist?! Hmmm...

Also, don't bigger kids need more to drink? "Each Mighty Kids Meal includes the same Happy Meal drink size and Happy Meal fries size and Happy Meal toy." Well, ok, but the only reason I order Super Sized meals is because I want a bigger drink. Who cares about the fries? So, if you super size an adult meal, the fries & drink are larger, but the sandwich stays the same; If you get a Mighty Kids Meal you get more meat, but that's it? So should it not be called maybe the... More Meat Meal (aka mmm), or maybe: Mega Meat Meal (also mmm).

Once again... confused by the simplist thiings in life. (I'm still pushing for frequent FRYER Miles!)

Posted by Jewels at 12:50 PM | Comments (0)

Pics

Just in case anyone is wondering... Here's a pic of Bob & I & a pic of the boys wearing their Harry Potter glasses from Grandma, & a pic of my Miranda on her birthday after realizing she couldn't blow out the candles a 4th time because they had melted all over the cake... :)

Posted by Jewels at 10:59 AM | Comments (0)

3 clicks

Whatever happened to that 3 clicks rule? Does that not count anymore? Is it now like get them lost in your site...if they are really looking for something, they'll stay forever?! (Try looking for a job at Dell!) I left after about 15 clicks that ended up in a loop.

Posted by Jewels at 09:59 AM | Comments (0)

Gateway

So I just sent my resume to the store manager at Gateway in Racine. (Mooooo) Check out this guy... From the day Ted Waitt founded Gateway on an Iowa cattle farm, our business has been about people. Gotta be pretty cool to pull off a hat like that! I think he could wear a bucket on his head & still look good....

I finally get the cow thing...umm duh.

Posted by Jewels at 09:25 AM | Comments (0)

Home again

Well, I'm home with sick kids again (still)... Lucky my boss is the most understanding person in the world, or I'd really be in trouble! Now since Saturday Mandy is getting bloody noses. She sneezed in the car this morning & there was blood in it. So now I'm freaking out. I tried calling the Dr. but it's too early. So now I am calling the ER. I mean she's just a baby, she's only 4.

The nurse said not to worry... & she said the word "snot" heh. She said to try some vaseline, but that this thing is really going around, so... whew! Thank God!

You know, I was thinking last night of things that really irritate me... I was a bit peeved about quite a few things last night. It's really funny how the dumbest little things just grate on my nerves like someone rubbing a balloon. (That really gets to me) I think what I'm starting to realize is that there are so many things that go on in my life right now that are bothering me that I am just overwhelmed. (& need to get over it!) So I'm going to start a list... maybe. I mean, maybe this list would just make me realize I'm being a spaz... again.

Well, I just got a call from an employment agency. This lady said she can't start finding me a job until after we move there, & she said "Well, let me get this straight, you CANNOT move here until you have a job?!" - like I had told her I was blue with pink hair. Uhh, yes woman. I have a family, they need food & a roof over their heads. Not too complicated is it?! I mean really. With 3 kids we both need to be working.

Is that really that complicated? I am not understanding how the real world works? Am I missing out on something? If I don't have a job & I move there is this lady going to come plant a money tree in my back yard? Grrr... I think this is going to be a bad day. Even as I say that it makes it all worse. It makes it seem so destined to be that way. So..I will say this day is starting out bad, but it's going to get a lot better! :) You know there ARE people that will hire me out there. I DO have very good references. Blah. whatever.

Posted by Jewels at 08:53 AM | Comments (0)

Can't Sleep

You know you really need cable when you turn on the t.v. & on your 2 channels there fuzzy Olympics or a morgue show. Geeze. So here I sit waiting for my arm to wake up so I can go back to bed. I was sleeping... for maybe 15 minutes, but Mandy is still sick... so I'm still hearing maaammmaaaa every half an hour or so. I fnally got her to ake some Tylenol. Maybe she'll sleep now. (Please, please, please)

One of my best friends is leaving for the Army tomorrow. We went over to say Goodbye, he was on the phone 3/4 of our visit, so we sais goodbye quick & left. (Miranda wanted to go home) But...he came over & brought us the food we left there & to say goodbye properly. Which may sound really good, but I was glad it was over & I didn't cry...& then had to do it again. It's really hard letting go when you have so few to let go of. That happens when you don't get out much.

I have some weird backspace deleting other letters going on, so either the keyboard has way too many kiddie crumbs, or I need to reboot. I'm gonna shut this whole thing off & go back to bed. Nite...

Posted by Jewels at 12:55 AM | Comments (0)

February 10, 2002

Weirdness

2 things... weird things...ok 2 things because I'm weird! geeze.

1. Salsa & syrup have a very strange smell when combined.

2. Every day I love my Home & End buttons more & more...

Posted by Jewels at 02:44 PM | Comments (0)

Trillian

Oh yeah...& Trillian has really wised up...now they are offering a Patch for the AOL issue... gotta love that.

Posted by Jewels at 02:36 PM | Comments (0)

Job Search Suckage (again)

You know...this whole spending my entire weekend (again) looking for a job really stinks. Why we have to decide to move at a time the job market is really bad is beyond me. Last year at this time there were jobs everywhere in the Milwaukee area. gah!

Plus... my Mom has to go have a "lump" removed from her breast Tuesday, & I'm a 24 hour drive away. The main reason, I suppose, we really need to go home. To be nearer to our families. I''m really trying not to worry about her, but she's my mom. Can't help it.

Well, I've been searching every Milwaukee job site I can find for the last 4 hours, & am really disgusted, so I'm going to give it a rest for a while. What really makes me sick is when people tell me...well you could take a job as (insert really lame job of your choice here) ...yeah, I COULD do that...but I do have a good job now that I love.

So it's all a battle in my mind...stay here & like my job (most of the time) or move there & try to find another I like?! Stay here & be broke, or move there & be broke... say here & live in a ratty house, or move there & have to sell everything we own to afford the move?!

What to do, what to do...

Posted by Jewels at 02:30 PM | Comments (0)

February 09, 2002

Emoticons

Oh...here's my so-far list of emoticons (Trillian) that need to be made:

(loser)

(cross)

(crap)

(dunce)

(duh)

(hey)

(what?!)

(freak)

(wtf)

(shut up!)

(pos)

(scroll up!)

(bye)

(love you)

(rolls eyes)

(flips off)

(ya right)

(huh?)

(cya)

(good night)

(thanks)

(haha)

(hehe)

(heh)

Let me know when it's done. k? (thx) (bye) (heh)

Posted by Jewels at 11:30 PM | Comments (0)

How Sad...

I just got done watching Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon... & all I can say is... How sad! The whole thing just depressed me. I hate movies like that. I was thinking if this ends here this is really gonna suck. And sure enough..that was it. I don't want to say anything in case you haven't seen it yet. It's a really good movie, just depressing. That's all I'm gonna say. I'm gonna go watch Swordfish now. Then go to sleep.

Posted by Jewels at 11:10 PM | Comments (0)

February 08, 2002

Something to keep in mind...

Here's a little tidbit to keep in mind. If you buy Vitamin C, & it just says "take one pill with a full glass of water" & you sit there & wonder...do I chew it or swallow it? Then you smell it & it smells good. DO NOT - I repeat DO NOT - stick it in your mouth & try chewing it just to see. Just swallow the stinkin thing. Because non-chewables that are chewed are sick, sick, sick.

- Lesson learned.

Posted by Jewels at 11:38 AM | Comments (0)

sick kids & Trillian - gah!

I'm home again with sick kids. Poor babies. Was home yesterday too, but was working on a website so....

Here I sit in the semi-dark letting them sleep. Not wanting to turn on the tv or Miranda will wake up & start crying again. She was up til 1:30 off & on crying "Mommeeeeee..." poor thing.

You know... I'm really getting upset about this AOL/Trillian thing. I LOVE Trill... first they (AOL) are blocking users, then last night I get the message that I'm trying to log in too soon or some crap, & this morning I get a message that my buddy list is unavailable. (It's not lost, just unavailable) I think they have something new in the works. Jerks.

More info on that here & here & here & here & there. Oh! And my absolute favorite.... Talkin' to Me? Not If AOL Has Its Way

Posted by Jewels at 08:40 AM | Comments (0)

February 05, 2002

Really long

Ok...so this is really long, but I think I want to have it here because it is a part of me, & I don't think many people come here anyways...:) I have come to a point in my life where I really needed God back in my life, & during a very emotional 2 weeks or so I wrote this. It's really long & started as a poem, but got really out of control & I was bawling the whole time I wrote it. Sooo... My letter of sorrow/joy.

There is a place within my heart that only one may go- It's been vacant oh so long awaiting your return. I feel it opening - glowing - waiting. I need you back Lord.

You are my life. My creator, my giver, my hero...my everything. Always there for me - my shining light - my strength- upon a cold dark night. When I was alone - you were there & I turned you away. Not realizing what you mean to me - that the void & suffering I felt was not your fault - it was me.

I didn't turn to you with open arms - I didn't ask for your help - I shut you out. My own stupidity & doubt leaving me alone - alone with my thoughts...with my life... with my misery. In a self made hell.

I want it back - your loving touch - your forgiveness - I beg of you - come back to me my one true love - only you can make me whole.

I'm so sorry I shut you out - leaving you - doubting you - fearing your scorn. I know now it was I who betrayed you.

Thank you for being there - thank you for hearing my prayers. Thank you for letting me feel your light, for something I can hold on tight, letting me hold on to you again when nothing else goes right.

Thank you for everything I've been unthankful for, & for not locking the door... The door to your world - through my soul through my mind. When everything seems so hard to find.

Thank you for making us- loving us - good & bad- thank you for standing firm when we make you sad.

Thank you for the sun, moon, & stars, for making us feel we are truly yours.

Thank you for creation - & everything that comes with it. You are IT Lord - the heavenly father - the King, & I just want you to know I love you more than anything.

Posted by Jewels at 08:51 PM | Comments (0)

Turbulance.

So anyhow. Here I am again. Yes he's sleeping, I'm not mad at him...just sad. Can you be sad at a person? I feel bad ya know?

I wrote another poem. I forgot about it until I just looked in this notebook:

Turbulance

Turbulance thrashes in my brain

Wondering what I have to gain

to become what I am meant to be...

Is something crucial lacking within me?

hmmm....

Posted by Jewels at 08:22 PM | Comments (0)

man - o- man

So, lets just get it all out in the open here... my 10 year old is having real attitude problems. I thought maybe he was manic-depressive since his bio is... well the student counselor says she doesn't think so. Which leads me to believe that it's a product of my parenting. Or lack there of. Don't get me wrong, I'm not an uncaring parent. It's just the opposite. I care too much & they run my life. I get this feeling that if I yell at them or punish them they will push me away & I love them so much that that would break my heart.

Anyhow...we are once again having problems with rent & stuff... I was at work all day 8-9 hours, came home went to the store, got pizza, & left to go to a parenting class the student counselor suggested I take to help me cope & learn to deal with my kids better. So, yeah parenting...HELLO?! There are 2 parents in this house! Who went to the class? Me. alone. Who stayed home & got all slurry which I was gone? Him.

NOt mad drunk, or violent drunk, just a sad drunk. I think he's sleeping now, but it really makes me wonder how/why I have to take so much responsibility/burden...while he can turn to that.

Not that I want to...because I don't. It really doesn't help. What's the damn point? Here I sit a basket case trying not to take xanax which was prescribed to me for panic attacks, because the doctor said they are addictive...& he gets drunk. It's just not fair. But typical.

Posted by Jewels at 08:03 PM | Comments (0)

February 04, 2002

I am FAT!

Went to the Dr. today, man am I FAT! (& I don't mean phat!) It's like I gained 20 pounds without knowing it... I was like 25 pounds more than I thought...I really hope I was looking at the scale wrong!! aaggghhh....I'm so depressed. So now, I'm on my first real diet ever. I can eat like 1580 calories a day if I want to be at my ideal weight by August 1st. We'll see... of course I'll have to go out & buy a scale now. How depressing!! At least I bought some Splenda I use so much sugar in my coffee it's UNREAL. & I bought some slim fast bars... I like the chocolate brownie ones. Mmmmmm.

I also bought some kava kava...I guess it's supposed to relax you. Maybe it will make my neck stop hurting. The doctor said it's a common tension spot or something... "Kava Kava or just kava is the herb of choice to relax the body and relieve, stress, anxiety, insomnia, tension, PMS, headache, back pain and panic attacks. Kava has been used for three thousand years by the people of the South Pacific for ceremonial, social and medicinal purposes. Kava is now recognized by many doctors as an alternative to drugs like Xanax and Valium. Follow the links below to pages with information on kava and to order online."

Sounds good to me... :) I'm taking my fat bootie to bed.

Posted by Jewels at 10:16 PM | Comments (0)

February 03, 2002

Gateway

Sweet!!! I just applied for a job at Gateway!! They have an office in Racine.... Tthat would be really cool... :D

Posted by Jewels at 07:08 PM | Comments (0)

Korea!

Wow! Now THIS is a way cool job...if I had a BA I'd applyTeaching Opportunities in Korea

Posted by Jewels at 06:48 PM | Comments (0)

More job stuff

Sooo... Time Warner Cable is having an online job fair. I checked it out & applied for 3 jobs... Sweet.

I guess I'm supposed to be watching the Stupid Bowl...just don't really care right now. Been calling all aroung looking for rentals in WI today. I mean ALL day.

I think so far my favorite job seeking site is Flip dog. It's really nice. Cool graphics, cool easy interface... I just LIKE it!

Posted by Jewels at 06:41 PM | Comments (0)

February 02, 2002

!@#%%##!@%!!

Know what really makes me mad?! I have all my junk mail usually go to my yahoo address & I log in like every other day & it says your mailbox is almost full...well come on!! So here's what I want Yahoo!

1. To be able to add an address to my blocked senders without having to look at it.

2. To have it ALSO send a reply automatically with that blocking that says remove in the subject line.

3. To delete the message automatically after blocking the address.

4. To be able to delete the bulk items folder every day or once a week without having to go in there.

5. To be able to block an entire domain (*@quitsendingmecrap.com)

6. To be able to add more than 100 addresses to my blocked senders

7. Instead of the address being blocked with the blockee never knowing it would send them a message like "your email address has been blocked by this user. Please remove them from all lists you have". Or some crap.

I guess that's it now. Back to the blocking/deleting...

Posted by Jewels at 10:37 PM | Comments (0)

Oxyclean

So I just bought some oxyclean @ Wally world. I used it in the wash. If the boys socks are clean I'll be amazed!! I'm gonna go check. I dunno...they look ok... I don't remember how bad they were, but they are still stained. We'll see what happens if I keep using it. You know...I TOLD those boys to save me some hot water & I still hear the water going. Grrrrr.....

Posted by Jewels at 10:08 PM | Comments (7)

Pink

Dying my hair AGAIN... I went from dk. brown (my natural) to this chocolate cherry (should have just called it burgandy!) & now I'm trying to go lighter which is probably really a bad idea. My 8 year old was in there with me, & said,"Wouldn't it be funny if your hair turned pink?!" Yeah...Hysterical! Am I a retard!! Yeah...I bet it will. This sucks. I'm ruining my hair color as I type. I'll let ya know how it goes, but I'm thinking badly... The count down is on... & now same as last time I dyed myhair the boys are going to get in the tub & use up all the hot water so I have to rinse in cold water. Gah!!! brb...have to go tell them to save me some hot water!

Posted by Jewels at 09:40 PM | Comments (0)

Bounty

My daughter ( the 4 year old) must be watching too much tv...

I'm TRYING to take a bath, relax, of course the doors not locked, what's the point?! You know they start knocking you freeze your as* off getting out & soak the floor in the process...Anyhow.. in she comes with a paper towel. Shoves it in the bathtub & says "Wook Mommy! It weally DO work underwater!" hehe....

Posted by Jewels at 12:46 PM | Comments (0)

Does anyone REALLY CARE about log bumper stickers?

Man-o-man it's late...I'm tired, & eating chips & salsa. Too bad it took me all night to make a few changes that I bet no one will even notice. Oh well so now I'm wondering if all the "blogger" things are usable on here anymore since I'm not using blogger anymore. (Greymatter - love it!) Like those cutsie little Blogger stickers I saw. I'm thinking that would be bad & maybe I should just make my own. Some Greymatter ones?! Are they already out there? If not... I'll make a few. If anyone has suggestions...lay 'em on me. Nite! ZZzzzZZZzzZZz....

Posted by Jewels at 01:43 AM | Comments (0)

February 01, 2002

Yowza

You know you have a cool website when....it's not even in English, & nobody cares!

Posted by Jewels at 08:14 PM | Comments (0)

Color Coolies

So I just did my color profile & I must admit it's way cool... pretty right on I guess. :) Mine says...

You are feeling really miserable at this time... and you'd like to form a relationship with someone with whom you could really communicate. At the same time ... whoever it may be ... that special "someone" must not conflict with your own belief system or ideals. This makes for tough going - but it would seem that the situation is only transitory ....It will soon pass...

Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly .... far slower than you anticipated and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place ..... In spite of the fact that you feel like "giving up"...don't...Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression "All's well that ends well" will have an extra special meaning for you

You are very demanding ... and insisting on total involvement ..but you do not reciprocate with the same depth of feeling. However, it could well be that maybe an unprecedented surprise is awaiting you in the near future ... for just as one, whilst paddling in the sea, could flounder into a whirlpool, so you may be drawn into a loving situation that has high emotional demands and you could well respond with a depth emotion that you never even dreamed that you possessed...

You are trying to prove yourself .. not only to yourself.. but also to everyone around you...There is much that you would like to say and do .. but the situation warrants self-restraint .. and that is the last thing that you have on your mind..It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it. But you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions ... You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes and respect your opinions. Only when this compliance is established, will you feel at ease and secure.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.

I'm SO glad it's Friday! I'm going to work on my links section & hopefully add a few somethings tonight. I have to work tomorrow since I'm so behind. :( And...I still haven't heard a word from that guy about that job. :'( Aaggghhh. Gotta go back to work...I'm on my lunch hour.

Posted by Jewels at 11:47 AM | Comments (0)