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July 31, 2002

I talked to my dad...

for the first time in like 28 years, & I'll be 30 in August. Here's how the conversation went:

Her: Hello
Me: Hi, is Leon there?
Her: Long pause, sure, can you hold a minute?
Me: Sure.

Him: Hello?
Me: Hi, Leon?
Him: Yes?
Me: Hi, this is Julie. (Waiting...) your daughter.
Him: Long, long pause...yes?
Me: Hi. Well I just wanted to say hi. Long, long pause...See how you are. Long, long pause...I sent you a letter about 8 years ago. Long, long pause...Did you get it?
Him: Long, long pause...yeah, I got it.
Me: Oh, I assumed you didn't since you never wrote back.
Him: Long, long pause...saying nothing at all...forever.
Me: (thinking...why isn't he saying anything?) Well, you've got 3 grandkids now.
Him: What?!
Me: I have 3 kids now.
Him: Oh. Yeah?
Me: Are you still at the same address?
Him: yep, yep same address.
Me: Ok, well I thought maybe I'd send you some pictures. Would that be ok?
Him: Yes, that would be.... fine.
Me: ok. Well, Um, Bye.

So what do you make of that? Was it shock? Utter disregard? What? Someone please tell me... because i just don't get it.
:confused

Posted by Jewels at 10:43 PM | Comments (0)

Yeefrigginhaw!!!

Bob got the job!!! He starts tomorrow at 6 am. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :woohoo

I'll be back later to tell you the rest of my news.

Posted by Jewels at 05:15 PM | Comments (0)

July 30, 2002

Yippie

Finally I had a fairly good day. First, Bob went about a job...everybody pray that he gets it!! :angel

Then I went to work. Well this could be a really long story....
I had the whole smoking section to myself...which was nice. Mondays are slow & it was my first time being alone in a section. Then lo & behold I had a party of 17 people coming in. Well. Anna, the hostess, bless her heart, does the sections. We talked about it, & since I'm still pretty new & he (the owner) gets a little freaky about parties & who handles them... we decided that he was going to not let me do it alone. (I thought maybe not at all, but Anna said, oh no, that's YOUR section) So we were talking about who he would put with me... I wanted Jim, because he's my buddy & oh so helpful. Anna thought it would be the new hotsy totsy waitress...but he had the girl that was training help me.

Long story not really short: he doesn't think anybody training should get tips. So, they left me $31 on a $151 bill which was really nice. I left part of it with Anna to give her anyhow... but I was #1 glad to not have gotten the party taken away, & #2 glad that everything went good, & that he was looking out for me. He could have had another waitress over there where I would have had to split the whole tip... anyhow that was cool.

Then my nephew Zach finally said Hi to me. It's only been almost 2 months since we've been here. He runs everytime I say hi, but he told my nephew Tyler to say hi to my on AIM. (Trillan) so that was cool too... AND...

everyone in my house was asleep when I got home. I think that was the best yet. Aahhhh... So I'm tired & I have 2 days off (besides the waitstaff meeting at 8 tomorrow night which is SO mandatory) ... but I'm going to bed. I just wanted to say something happier for a change.

Oh, AND... my bestest best friend Nikki is moving back to Florida, she lives in Oregon now...& they might come see me on the way!! :D I haven't seen her for like 10 years. Nitey nite... :woohoo

Posted by Jewels at 12:14 AM | Comments (1)

July 29, 2002

Paranoia

Yes, it has set in... I'm freaking out ever since that trojan was on my comp, & now I feel like everyone is out to get me. Like, what? I really have important stuff on my computer. All I know is if I find out who gave it to me...I'm going to have to kick someones a**.

Works not so bad anymore. Just those 8-8 shifts get really long & I'm so worn out by Sunday night that I can't even think. So last night I went to bed at like, 10:30 & at 11:10 Bob comes in turning on the light making a bunch of noise...looking for the kitty that he swears he doesn't even like?! I was SO pissed! Believe me...he heard quite a few obsenities. Man. That was SO rude. He really needs to find a damn job & get off my nerves. He's talking to the guy about the job that he was supposed to have before we moved here right now, so we'll see what happens. Please, please, please...:whyme

It's rainy & I'm so glad. We have no A/C & it was 100 yesterday & really humid. Thank God I was at work I air conditioning. When this really hot weather is done I'm gonna be really glad! Too bad I'm not used to Wisconsin winters anymore & I'm gonna be freezing my tushies this winter & griping about that too.

I miss Colorado & my old job & my friends...but I really don't miss that house we were living in. So far the only good things about moving here is that our house & yard is nicer, & I really love being by my sister. Hopefully when Bob gets a job we will be able to buy things we need like mini blinds & another car, & a dryer...then things will get better. I mean, lifes not all about money, I know that, but it does make things a lot easier.

I wish I could find one of those tele-commuting jobs. That would be really nice. Oh well, whatever. I better go, Bob will be home to fight with me any minute. So I should prepare for that. :confused

Posted by Jewels at 10:04 AM | Comments (0)

July 26, 2002

SSDD

Well, nothing really new. Marquette never called back. Bob still has no job... I'm still waitressing. I got some damn virus. I lost my emails, my addres book, my mp3s, & my favs. Sux. All I can say is thank God I have Windoze 2000 because if i had had 9x my whole computer would have been reformatted. Why, why...? I'm pretty sure it came off of the new Morphues. Gah!

Ok I spose I'll tell a little about that huge thing I mentioned, but it's a long story so I'm going to make it short as possible... I never met my dad. I bought some geneology software, & within 10 minutes I had found 6 generations back on his side of the family. Then I called the lady that had made the tree I was looking at & she's like a 3rd cousin or something. She gave me an email address to my dads twin brothers son. (My cousin) & he sent me pictures from 2 weeks ago of a family reunion. It was cool. Too bad I lost them when my virus hit. :irked

Gotta go...I have to get realy for work. Hi Jim. :lafhard

Posted by Jewels at 09:19 AM | Comments (0)

July 15, 2002

Yep...

My job STILL sux. But... I got a call about a job @ Marquette University this weekend!! That's where I've wanted to work all along. Free tuition for me, Bob & all 3 of the kids!!! Can you imagine??? I'm so excited I've been up since 6:30!

I think I'm going to call in sick today. I can't deal with the thought of having to go to work...it's giving me a gut ache no lie. Oohh Bobs up gotta go. I have a HUGE thing to say later...so I'll be back. :lafhard

Posted by Jewels at 08:26 AM | Comments (0)

July 09, 2002

Yeah...

My job sucks. I worked 9 hours yesterday & got like $34 in tips in addition to my whopping $2.33/hour. $8 of which I spent on lunch since we aren't allowed to leave. Since I'm feeling pretty depressed & I am working so much I haven't been online much... obviously.

Only good thing I can think to say is it can't get much worse in the job situation.
:confused

Our Oprah show aired yesterday (2 weeks late) we weren't on. Oh well. I'm going to go do something either clean or take a nap...I'm not sure yet.

Bob & the kids went up north for the 4th & will have been gone a week tomorrow. I was staying at my moms, but I'm home now. Maybe I'll bbl.:snide

Posted by Jewels at 03:57 PM | Comments (2)

July 01, 2002

Jewels Be Sad

Julie: Mornin
gnubeexj: Hey.
Julie: hi. well i got a job. it's awful. i hate it so bad.
gnubeexj: are you referring to the greek restaurant job?
Julie: yes. it's the worst (hardest) job I ever had
gnubeexj: doesn't sound good.
Julie: i am scheduled for 50 hours this week. 3 12 hour days. 4th of july, saturday & sunday
gnubeexj: That's a lot of days off though. That's cool.
Julie: no. i get 2 days off. i worked 8-8 all weekend & I work 9 hours today
gnubeexj: ugh. that doesn't even sound good.
Julie: my feet hurt SO bad I can't even hardly walk when i get home
gnubeexj: I bet!
Julie: man. i just wanna shrivelup & die. why did u tell me to move here?
gnubeexj: excuse me?!?! i think i held out the longest against it sister!
Julie: i know
Julie: I found out that they have a HUGE stack of applications & the only reason (I'm assuming) that I got hired is because the owner was there & he likes cute waitresses
gnubeexj: how's bob doing?
Julie: ok i guess. i know he feels bad & he's stuck with all 3 of the kids all day.
gnubeexj: still no bites on a job though?
Julie: no
gnubeexj: damn.
Julie: that one guy said a few weeks. what really sucks is now I need to go buy some black tennis shoes so my feet don't fall off. more money... I lreadyhad to pay $26 before I started for a stupid shirt & apron, or my "uniform" as they like to call it
gnubeexj: hehe. the whole idea of you going from a place like MI to a place with a "uniform" just cracks me up! you gotta be suffering from a severe case of culture shock!
Julie: yes. i cried the whole way home a few nights ago
gnubeexj: i'm sorry.
Julie: me too. i have to leave here in an hour & a half again. my feet still hurt from yesterday. I think I better go...I'm gonna hop in the shower. btw we have to wear skirts everyday
gnubeexj: :-D
Julie: above the knee. no shorts. no pants.
gnubeexj: Oh yes... above the knee... of course!
Julie: damn it sucks
Julie: win the lottery & send me money ok?
gnubeexj: will do. l8r.
Julie: k cya

Posted by Jewels at 02:16 PM | Comments (0)

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Welcome to my life...
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life