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August 31, 2002

Science versus Religion

ok, so my big realization this week is that there is a very fine line between science & religion in this world. I mean, I was thinking about it, & seriously something church-going people could consider a miracle, or just plain blind faith, the people in the science world could consider craziness & even have a person commited. I mean, that scares me. It also makes you wonder...who's right?! I mean people believe what they believe. It's really nice when you believe what you believe & that's that. Black & white. But it can be that way on either level. That's what scares me. Sure, there are grey areas, but maybe not to one side or the other.

I'm not really sure what brought all this on... but I just figured I'd post this new revelation... ?

Posted by Jewels at 10:50 AM | Comments (1)

My eleven dollar guy...

is just an eleven dollar guy in general. He was in someone elses section last night, & left them 11 dollars. So, that relieves my killer theory, but also I made like nothing last night... so I went & said hi to him, & asked what he was doing "way up there" (in another section) & he asked my name & said it was a very nice name & that he'll ask for me next time. Heh. I didn't dare tell the girls I did that they'd be so pissed. :wow

Posted by Jewels at 10:46 AM | Comments (0)

We may become homeowners!

My mom is going over to my uncles (her brothers) to talk to him about us buying this house. He wants us to, our credit is pretty bad so she's going to talk to him about a land contract or co-signing. Which would be SO cool. The "downstairs people" would be gone & we could keep our cats & move the litter box downstairs... plus we could have an extra apartment type setup downstairs for visitors or whatever. I think we would set up the basement as a den, & maybe let the boys have their bedroom down there if they want, or use it as a spare bedroom. I ddon't know...but it's all depending on what my uncle says. I mean, it could come down to him selling the house outright & us having to move too. So say a prayer, wish us luck, cross your fingers, whatever you can do. :angel

Posted by Jewels at 10:43 AM | Comments (1)

August 30, 2002

OMG 2

ok THIS is just too funny not to post!!! Check the main site out. heh.

Posted by Jewels at 02:08 PM | Comments (0)

OMG!

So, wtf? I think that's all I can say...either this chick was smoking crack or something...or got paid a helluvalot of money. I'd say she's got balls...but it's apparent that she doesn't. omg, omg. Oh, & eew. (Link via I'll think about that tomorrow, via Dick, Via Annessa) Whew.

Posted by Jewels at 01:22 PM | Comments (1)

Since I don't get out much...

Sean has made it oh so easy to spot stars at Starbucks. Suhweet. (Link via I'll think about ittomorrow).

Posted by Jewels at 01:14 PM | Comments (0)

Pfffttt...

I was visiting other blogs today which is the first time in quite a while... & I have to say that I don't know why, but yes, farts still amuse me. (Found via Dick, who seems way cool btw).

Posted by Jewels at 01:12 PM | Comments (0)

I have a few things to say...

but I will split them up in case anyone wants to *ahem* comment.

I am amazed that they make crustless bread, & even more amazed that I spent over $2 for it!

Posted by Jewels at 01:08 PM | Comments (0)

Is it just me...

or everyone else in this world? Why is it that people have such a hard time understanding me? It's like I talk & it all makes perfect sense to me, & people are always like Huh?! Nobody gets me.... well almost nobody. :gurn

Posted by Jewels at 11:37 AM | Comments (2)

Good Morning world

I am awake & childless. Whatdda ya think of that? The kids just went to the bus stop. Miranda is at my moms.... aahhh. It's so quiet.

I was thinking today was going to be a really good day until my Mom just called & yelled at me. Why, why why do I have to listen to that? She took Miranda home yesterday, & was mad that I didn't come pick her up at midnight when I got done working/grocery shopping. Well, I didn't know she was going to want to come home...AND I didn't know I was supposed to call. So WHAT am I psychic now? :irked

Posted by Jewels at 08:55 AM | Comments (2)

A few things to point out...

#1...Glow by J.Lo smells SO good!!! One of my co-waitresses brought a sample in & I loved it so much she left it for me!! Wasn't that sweet? Anyhow...I gotta have it!!

#2 Dannon LaCreme Yogurt is really, really good & I don't even like yogurt. I mean good like desert good. Mmmmm...

#3 Spilling an entire container of creamy garlic dressing all over your front side is NOT a cool way to end your night! Especially when you have to go to the grocery store after work! Bet I'm vampireless for a while!

#4 Walking into work in the usual skirt & black nylons & looking around realizing that they switched to black pants on your 2 days off is also not cool. I wanted to wear pants SO bad all day! Why didn't anyone call me???

#5 while making cups of tapioca at work it's a really good thing to leave some in the container & take a spoon & eat what's left in the pan. :clown

Posted by Jewels at 12:22 AM | Comments (0)

August 29, 2002

You know...

Weather.com says it's 75 out & "feels like" 78. I think it's 85 out & feels like 100. geeze. I was just out hanging up wash & let me tell you socks & a clothesline are enough to piss anyone off. :irked

I'm going to go take a shower & put on a non black shirt before my next load needs to go up.

Btw, Bray had a headache again this morning. What causes headaches in children? He used to do this ALL the time. I really think it's stress related due to the whole new school thing. But I gave the poor kid a Motrin & send him on his way. I really hope he doesn't start doing this again... He needs to go to school. I mean it's only his second day. I just don't get it. I can't wait til Bobs insurance kicks in.

And...I really wish I had a cool pen cam like someone else that lives oh so far away... I could take pictures of people eating...& maybe the finger up his nose guy. That would be too cool. :petrified

Posted by Jewels at 11:47 AM | Comments (0)

August 28, 2002

I've made up my mind!

After much soul searching & debating & researching...I've decided I was right all along. (For 10 years)! I want to be a Dental Hygenist. So that's that. I'm going to try & enroll for the January semester.

I'll tell you.... this website is so helpful & cool. I have to say it really helped in my decision. I was back & forth on it all day. It tells you everything you could want to know.

The kids started school today. :'( First day at the new school. I feel SO bad for them...it's just awful. They had nobody to play with at recess or sit by at lunch... I really hope they make friends tomorrow because this is just breaking my heart. :confused

Well I am exausted & am going to bed. Nitey nite...

Posted by Jewels at 10:24 PM | Comments (0)

August 24, 2002

Today was good

I FINALLY took a Saturday off. We took the kids to the Zoo, & to Chuckie Cheese. They were ok, semi-bad at the zoo, but are really being good now. All three of them are playing with play-doh at the kitchen table. Can you believe it?

Bobs sleeping in the chair. We rented a video I forgot the name...but he fell asleep before it was half way over. As usual. I didn't even bother watching it. It's pointless when they are awake. I have to work from 8-8 tomorrow...so I'll be MIA all day.

I think all that fresh air & walking really did me in because I'm very tired. :calm I think I'm going to go to bed.

But before I go... check out the cool cootie catcher!

Posted by Jewels at 09:42 PM | Comments (0)

August 23, 2002

The 11 dollar man...

Ok, so we all know I'm waitressing now right...? So last week this guy comes in & sits at the back counter. Orders a fish fry which is 7.95 plus a Pepsi, which is 1.65 so his bill is around $10.00 right? Well the girls were all freaking out because he left me an 11 dollar tip! Woah...now this is just strange. I figured maybe he didn't pay his bill...so I went & checked. No, he paid it. How cool is that? Well he came in again tonight. Sat in my section, which was in smoking tonight. Way in the back. The guy doesn't smoke... I realize like around dessert time that he's "that" guy. Kinda pudgy, longish grey/blonde hair. Hard to describe, but I guess he reminds me of Drew Carey minus the glasses with longer hair. So, he leaves, & sure enough...eleven dolars again. It's funny because it was the same as last time.... 5 dollar bill on the bottom, 3 singles on top of the 5, & 3 dollars in quarters all stacked neatly. Same exact thing last week.

So anyhow...it's really, really cool that he leaves me the tip...I just keep wondering why...& why the way he does it. Very strange. Maybe I'll talk to him next Friday?

Posted by Jewels at 11:04 PM | Comments (2)

Men!

nuff said. I've been drinking & I never drink. :tongue

Posted by Jewels at 12:36 AM | Comments (0)

August 21, 2002

well....

my birthday sucked. The kids were awful & Bob was rude... I had to work, & made a whopping $14 in tips. At least I'm off tomorrow. We'll see how that goes. :confused

Posted by Jewels at 11:03 PM | Comments (2)

I am old.

Thirty. Blah. :perplex

Posted by Jewels at 10:03 AM | Comments (0)

August 20, 2002

My birthday...

is tomorrow...yeah, anyhow my mom took me yeterday & got me the coolest Mickey mouse watch & a way cool pair of shades. :D The watch looks just like this, but is silver and gold. The face is gold instead of silver & the circles on ther band are gold not silver...so it's 2 tone to match my jewelry. :D I LOVE IT!!!!

Posted by Jewels at 10:38 AM | Comments (0)

Ya know...

I really wonder sometimes about my life.

Like #1...I have this weblog that really is not normal. It's more of an online diary/complaining area. I know I should have links to cool places everyday & stuff...but I just don't have the time. Plus if I started doing that than I'd feel like I had to do it everyday & I'd get freaked out when I didn't have time to look for cool links, & I'd stop posting. It's happened before. I really don't even surf the net that much anymore. I sit here & play games. Online, offline what ever... for some reason I think it relaxes me.

#2 Seriously...am I losing my mind? Why do things little tiny thing irritate the hell out of my lately? Like right now I'm typing & Brayden says "Who are you talking to?" Well, I'm not "talking" to anybody in particular right now...not that it's any of your business. He gets that from his dad who gets all pissy when I have IM on when he's home...like I can only have a conversation with him...when they all go so well lately.

#3 Why, why, why do I have to adjust my entire life for everybody else everyday? For example... I am on anti-depressants AND anti-anxiety medication because... I guess my lifes not everything I had hoped?...I don't know. But Bobs attitude is (now that I just took my last pill & don't have an extra $75 for more this month)...well why do you need those anyhow? Just stop taking them. I bet they're bad for you." Ya. thanks. It's a really good idea to stop taking anti-depressants cold-turkey. He really doesn't understand that he's like 99% of the reason I'm taking them. :confused

Point B here... my sleeping habits suck. I come home from work...the boys are still awake & hungry. Then Miranda wants me to read to her & sleep in her bed because she's scared. Then Brayden busts into her bedroom wanting me to come sleep in the living room because he's too scared to sleep in his own room. I mean, I'm sure this is all my fault because I do it all the time! I let them... & for some reason I too am uneasy when they sleep in another room... like if someone broke in or there was a fire...I don't know. So...I travel from room to room all night upon everyone's whim. I wake up in the morning & am usually surprised where I am. Sometimes I sleep in my bed, but that doesn't last long either. I know I need to just make them all sleep alone, but I am always too tired to do anything about it...so I put it off for another day. :gurn

#4 I go through my life everyday telling myself that someday...someday I'm going to have the life I wanted. The job I want... the nice husband that I really deserve... someone that cares about me as much as himself. Then I wonder, I mean really wonder if that's all just a big joke. If people get married & they lose their own identity & just live for everyone else. If there is no true happy marriage. Because mine is not awful. I really do love him a lot. I mean we've been together almost 11 years now...that has to count for something. Right? Funny thing is...we have nothing in common. Just the kids. That's it. He drinks, I don't. Mostly because I can't. Someone has to stay sober around here. If we go out (usually Christmas parties since we have no social life) someone has to drive...ya know? I smoke. He doesn't. We listen to different music totally...we like different movies. He's outdoorsy, I'm not. He likes dogs, I like cats. He likes sports...I don't. I like people...he hates people. I swear. Aacck... so the only time I get out of the house & do anything is when I go to work. Which isn't the greatest place to be right now either.

Which brings me to #5. Work. I hate it. I suppose if I was Greek & could do anything I wanted there like some of the other people there...it wouldn't be so bad... You know... pick which customers you want, if you want to take a new table or not...if you want to eat while you're at work, take a break, use the flippin' phone...whatever. Nope, gotta be Greek. But no, I'm just a normal American working in a Greek restaurant without all the privileges. So there's that going on while all the cooks/dishwashers talk about me in Spanish & I have no idea what they are saying...

Ok, I guess that's enough venting for now. I have to get dressed & do the dishes, clean the kitchen, do wash, clean the bathroom, & make sure the kids get ready to go to the movies with my mom... I work again tonight I'm not off until Thursday. Which means I am working tomorrow on my birthday. :whyme

Posted by Jewels at 10:17 AM | Comments (0)

August 17, 2002

Aortal

Well I am so excited! I feel like I've been adopted! Smattering.org has me as an aortal link!! Now. I must admit upon seeing the word aortal I was quite confused thinking it mean like someone who's having a coronary over nothing...or I don't know what. But, when I pulled my head out of my butt & looked it up & I think it's so very sweet!!! Thank you sooo much Heather! :woohoo

Posted by Jewels at 12:17 AM | Comments (0)

August 15, 2002

What is this whole West Nile thing about...?

It's freaking me out. Now I have to be scared for the kids to get bit by mosquitoes? Does anyone KNOW how stinkin many mosquitoes there are in Wisconsin?? A lot. I guess it's in Illinois...& how sad. This page has info for every state just in case anyone is wondering...

Posted by Jewels at 09:46 PM | Comments (0)

Emode says...

Julie, your true talent is verbal ability

You seem to know how to pick the right words for almost every occasion. Beyond your ability to interpret information and articulate your points, you appear to understand the power and aesthetic appeal behind language. Your verbal knowledge can make you versatile in expressing yourself. And your skills in this arena also allow you to pick up subtle meanings behind what people say.

These specialized communication skills can be of huge value in a variety of business and social environments.

How do we know that your true talent is verbal ability? While you were taking the test, we calculated your responses to each test question, and noticed that, relative to others, you consistently answered questions that measure verbal ability correctly.

Posted by Jewels at 03:44 PM | Comments (0)

6 days...

& counting until I turn the BIG 3-0...can u believe it? No wrinkles yet...but all this grey hair is driving me nuts! :snide

Posted by Jewels at 12:43 AM | Comments (0)

I think everything is going to be ok...

as far as the mess downstairs is concerned. I heard tonight that they won't be down there too much longer... not by choice. Now we will have to pay more rent I'm sure, but it'll be worth it. I just hope my uncle doesn't end up giving up & selling the house. It'll be cool to turn the downstairs into a huge den for the kids & Packer games... plus there's an extra fridge & bathroom & spare bedroom for guests or whatever down there. We'll see...I shouldn't count my chickens before they're hatched...it seems like when I do everything goes wrong. Nite...
P.s. weird...I'm typing with 2 hands as of yesterday for some really strange reason unbeknownst to me. Maybe I'll be able to type faster than 45wpm with 2 hands. :biggrin

Posted by Jewels at 12:27 AM | Comments (0)

Cold food is good

We got a new (used) fridge! Yippie!!!! We had to use the freezer on the fridge we had when we moved in for a refridgerator...so we had no room & no freezer. No ice, no popsicles...it was driving me crazy!! But no more. We will have cold drinks & frozen food...& best of all ice!

Posted by Jewels at 12:19 AM | Comments (0)

August 14, 2002

Why why why...

does my husband have to fight with everyone all the time? You know...he's been being a real a-hole for pretty much ever since we got here. I don't understand why or what his problem is...but i really don't like it.

So, the whole house situation which could be not so bad is a huge fiasco now. I don't know what his problem is...but he insists on yelling at her 13 year old daughter about everything that happens. Last night he went down stairs to do some wash, & there were maggots all over their piles & piles of stuff they have all over. Well...ok, that's really, really sick, but come on. How does that become the daughter's responsibility? So he's screaming at her through the door & she's ignoring him...I would too he was being an idiot. really. He's like there's f-ing maggots all over down here bang bang bang... AAAggghhh! SO she calls her friends mom to come & get them because he's freaking out on her. Then she calls her mom who comes home & has a cow on him for swearing in front of her daughter. Which is totally understandable, but her daughter swears all the time...so it's not like anything she hasn't heard before. Well anyhow...he is like fighting with the mom about how f-ing sick it is down there & did she wipe her maggot infested feet before coming into our house blah blah blah...TOTAL a-hole!!!!

So now my question is this... how did it end up that I have been with a man that is such a jerk for over 10 years...& I never really even noticed it? Do other people feel like this? It's like... can I really spend the rest of my life with someone taht can't get along with other people? That is so self centered that everyone else is an idiot...& he does no wrong?! Does one of us need therapy & if so...who??? AAgghh!

I am so upset I feel sick. I can't believe that he is talking about us moving again already. I mean we can't afford to live anywhere but where we are right now, so why can't he just get along with people??? And how did someone who gets along with just about everyone end up with that?

Posted by Jewels at 09:28 AM | Comments (3)

August 08, 2002

My fridge

sounds like a lawnmower! That can't be good! How queer that was... & loud!!! I went & played with the coldness settings & it stopped. I don't know if it's dead, or what now. Man.

Well, I'm off tomorrow!!! Yesssssss!! I think I'm going to go to bed... I'm really tired. I hope the fridge doesn't blow up while I'm sleeping!
:petrified

I'm trying to learn spanish so the cooks at work can stop talking about me while I'm in the same room...I really hate that!! So...I'll say benos noches. :)

Posted by Jewels at 12:30 AM | Comments (0)

August 06, 2002

Yeehaw!!!

we went to the little carnival thing here & the kids had a blast!! Almost everything was free...games prizes, face painting, fireworks, free shirts, flashlights, they even had free raffles every 20 minutes & guess what I won??? 4 tickets including parking to the Zoo!!! That is SO cool & ironic because Bob had me check the price of the admission & I figured it would be almost $50 for us to get in so we decided not to go...but now we can!!!! I just have to get a day off that Bob has off. :) I am SO excited! I did a little happy dance when I won. It was awesome. Today was a really good day.

I slept late, got a lot of wash done...had fun at the carnival, & it's so nice out...almost cold really. So I was not sweating my tushies off. Good good day. :woohoo

Plus... 2 more days until Bob gets his first paycheck & then after that we'll be getting back to normal. Man, do I have a list of things we need. Pillows, sheets, fridge, dryer, food, food, food... ;P

Posted by Jewels at 11:22 PM | Comments (0)

Boring...

Been doing wash ALL day... now I have to vacuum & take a stinkin shower. We are taking the kids to this free carnival deal tonight which is going to be a bunch of fun. I'm pretty sure Bob won't go, but the kids will have a blast...so that's all that matters!! :) Gotta go...

Posted by Jewels at 03:01 PM | Comments (0)

August 02, 2002

Who woulda thunk it...?

Emode says I am Left brained! That's so weird! I always thought I was right brained... & I suck at math!

They said:
Julie, you are Left-brained

Most left-brained people like you feel at ease in situations requiring verbal ability, attention to detail, and linear, analytical ability. Whether you know it or not, you are a much stronger written communicator than many, able to get your ideas across better than others.

It's also likely that you are methodical and efficient at many things that you do. You could also be good at math, particularly algebra, which is based on very strict rules that make sense to your logical mind.

How do we know all this? How do we know that you are detailed-oriented and probably notice what people are wearing when they walk into a room?

Because while you were taking this test, we measured your responses to each test question and analyzed how your brain naturally reacts when it's presented with various types of information.

Strange!! So what side of your brain do they think YOU use? And what do you think...? Hmmm?

Posted by Jewels at 12:35 PM | Comments (0)

August 01, 2002

My cousin Jeff

Ok. So my new found cousin Jeff, who is my dads twin brothers son... says that he thinks the conversation with my dad was positive. !? He said he didn't think he'd speak to me at all. What do you make of that? I was all sad & crying, but maybe it's not that bad... I mean, Bob thinks he was in shock, but I just don't think it's fair that this is going to be all one sided. You know? Oh well... I have to find some pictures & then mail them...which knowing me will take forever. But...we'll see what happens.

I just called work & I thought my boss was going to fire me because I can't work the hours I was supposed to the rest of this week...but he was nice. He said "That's fine" & "Not a problem" so yippie!! I will be working 4-10's or 4-9's from now on. Except Sundays, I'll still be doing 8-8.

:lafhard We are going to have medical & dental insurance for the first time in like 7 years for our WHOLE family!!! In 30 days! I am SO excited I can't even stand it!!!!!!! My kids can go get a check up before they start school... & Miranda & I can get our teeth fixed. It's going to be a HUGE relief. I also want (need) to have Braydens thyroid checked.

So, yes I can talk again now that I have a few good things to say & I'm not a huge downer all day. Life is getting better & I am SO glad!!!

Posted by Jewels at 10:49 AM | Comments (0)

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Welcome to my life...
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life