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September 23, 2002

Nothing new

I am still employed. I have tomorrow off THANK GOD! I will talk to Bob & see what he thinks I should do. I talked to him quick since he got home late which meant I was late for work...& he said go ahead & quit. So that's that. I don't have to worry about fighting with him about it. I really don't know what to do. We worked with 3 new waitresses tonight which was just sucky weird. Aagggh.

I still feel like crap all day everyday (for what 9 or 10 days now?) the only thing that seems to make me feel better is eating bread. I can't go around eating bread all day. And...I can't find anything to drink that helps... & I drink a LOT of stuff in a day. A lot. :( I'm trying Sierra Mist & cranberry juice now. Tastes good...but isn't helping. Trying Zantac 75 again. I don't think that seems to help either. I don't know. I'm gonna go to bed. Maybe if I sleep sleep sleep I'll be all better. Yeah.

Posted by Jewels at 10:51 PM | Comments (0)

Help!

Ok, since I think I'm going to quit my job... & I'm thinking I should stay home & do webdesign for a while... (just wait til Bob gets home & thinks I've lost my ever lovin' mind!) Anyhow... I need a really cool name. But everything I think of is too girly. My favorite so far is... oh man... Pixels in Pajamas. Ha! That would go over well with business types. I could use PIP though... I don't know. What do you think? Anyone have any ideas here? I like the pixel thing, but am really open to suggestions. :perplex

Posted by Jewels at 11:42 AM | Comments (2)

Regular Vs. Decaf

One more thing before I go to bed. I have this caffeine problem...like too much makes me all shaky & weird, so I drink the half stuff. (Half regular half decaf). Anyhow...tonight I was drinking huge glasses of decaf at work, & the hostess Anna (did I tell you she's back?!...I'll explain later.) says that too much coffee is bad for you. She knew I was drinking decaf btw. Well since I have this whole feeling sick most of the day can't eat without feeling nauseous thing (ulcer? & yes, my tubes are tied...so get it out of your head) I have been trying not to drink caffeinated stuff. So, yeah. Really now. Is decaf bad for you like regular coffee? Because as far as I knew the caffeine in coffee was what was bad?! I'm confused. :snide

Posted by Jewels at 01:46 AM | Comments (0)

I can't sleep!

So I'm laying in bed... for a half an hour now... thinking & thinking about how much I HATE being a waitress... & I've decided that I'm going to talk to Bob tomorow... & if he doesn't freak out...which I'm sure he won't- I'm going to tell my boss that they can take me off the schedule after this week. When he asks why I'll explain that I hate it, that I'm not a very good waitress, & it's demeaning blah blah blah... & if he can think of something else for me to do for more than $2.33 an hour like coffee girl, bartenderess, hostess, window for the orders coming up that's fine... but if not, I'm out. Just can't stand it anymore. I really really sucks. I can think of a million better things to do with my time than be treated like crap. (Got yelled at again by a lame ass customer again tonight) ...I'll explain In the morning when I'm not so moody.

Posted by Jewels at 01:40 AM | Comments (1)

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Welcome to my life...
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life