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February 11, 2002

Can't Sleep

You know you really need cable when you turn on the t.v. & on your 2 channels there fuzzy Olympics or a morgue show. Geeze. So here I sit waiting for my arm to wake up so I can go back to bed. I was sleeping... for maybe 15 minutes, but Mandy is still sick... so I'm still hearing maaammmaaaa every half an hour or so. I fnally got her to ake some Tylenol. Maybe she'll sleep now. (Please, please, please)

One of my best friends is leaving for the Army tomorrow. We went over to say Goodbye, he was on the phone 3/4 of our visit, so we sais goodbye quick & left. (Miranda wanted to go home) But...he came over & brought us the food we left there & to say goodbye properly. Which may sound really good, but I was glad it was over & I didn't cry...& then had to do it again. It's really hard letting go when you have so few to let go of. That happens when you don't get out much.

I have some weird backspace deleting other letters going on, so either the keyboard has way too many kiddie crumbs, or I need to reboot. I'm gonna shut this whole thing off & go back to bed. Nite...

Posted by Jewels at February 11, 2002 12:55 AM

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