AskJewels

February 04, 2002

I am FAT!

Went to the Dr. today, man am I FAT! (& I don't mean phat!) It's like I gained 20 pounds without knowing it... I was like 25 pounds more than I thought...I really hope I was looking at the scale wrong!! aaggghhh....I'm so depressed. So now, I'm on my first real diet ever. I can eat like 1580 calories a day if I want to be at my ideal weight by August 1st. We'll see... of course I'll have to go out & buy a scale now. How depressing!! At least I bought some Splenda I use so much sugar in my coffee it's UNREAL. & I bought some slim fast bars... I like the chocolate brownie ones. Mmmmmm.

I also bought some kava kava...I guess it's supposed to relax you. Maybe it will make my neck stop hurting. The doctor said it's a common tension spot or something... "Kava Kava or just kava is the herb of choice to relax the body and relieve, stress, anxiety, insomnia, tension, PMS, headache, back pain and panic attacks. Kava has been used for three thousand years by the people of the South Pacific for ceremonial, social and medicinal purposes. Kava is now recognized by many doctors as an alternative to drugs like Xanax and Valium. Follow the links below to pages with information on kava and to order online."

Sounds good to me... :) I'm taking my fat bootie to bed.

Posted by Jewels at February 4, 2002 10:16 PM

Comments

Post a comment

**Welcome to my life...**
Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong And no one understands you Do you ever want to run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels alright You don't know what it's like to be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more Before your life is over? Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With the big fake smiles and stupid lies While deep inside you're bleeding No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels alright You don't know what it's like to be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life No one ever lied straight to your face And no one ever stabbed you in the back You might think I'm happy But I'm not gonna be ok Everybody always gave you what you wanted You never had to work it was always there You don't know what it's like What it's like To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like (what it's like) To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Welcome to my life Welcome to my life