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May 06, 2002

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Ok, here's the deal. Raising Hell is having a question of the week . Here's my answer...& if anyone can beat this...they deserve to win. :)

The question is....Birthday parties are supposed to provide great memories for children. Sometimes it works out that way, and sometimes it doesn't. What was your or your child's best/worst birthday party experience?

Ok, the only B-day party I remember having as a child was a slumber party when I was in 3rd or 4th grade. I was allowed to invite like 6 girls over to spend the night. My mother (a single parent) had quite a passion for vodka at the time,(hmmm maybe it was Brandy then?) ok for a long time. Up until 2 years ago really.... anyhow. I BEGGED my Mom, begged her NOT to go out for my birthday party. She said she wouldn't. She promised! She lied. So whatever, there we were being good little girls in my bedroom playing don't spill the beans. My mother came home at like 9:00 & must have been a little confused as to the time of day. She came bursting into my room totally drunk & SCREAMING at us to go to bed right NOW! She couldn't believe we will still awake. So I remember girls saying they wanted to go home...actually I think they DID go home & I think they were cring.... The next day at school & for quite a while after that Tiffany this little 2 faced friend I had ran around the school saying "Julie Miller's Mom is a DRUNK!" & everyone picked on me for a long time after that.

Posted by Jewels at May 6, 2002 11:55 AM

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Oh, I think that just takes the cake!

Posted by: Vex at May 6, 2002 12:13 PM

Oh, man. That's terrible.
My mom used to tell me I was ugly and stupid and would end up with no friends - when she was drunk and high on blow. I never had friends sleep over. She did. Ask me about the day before I ran away, hooboy.

The worst thing about having a loser mom, besides hoping and praying that you never become them, is not wanting to let them be a participating grandmother. While we can convince ourselves that we don't/didn't need them to mother us, I'd really like to know there was a grandmother I could trust with my kid. If I have one.

Posted by: Jessica at May 6, 2002 01:02 PM

Jess-

How sad...my Mom said those exact same things to me! It was "you're stupid, you're ugly, I wish you were never born...you're the reason I drink you know."

k...wanna tell me about the day before you ran away? You can email it if you want...

Posted by: Jewels at May 6, 2002 09:45 PM

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