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July 29, 2002

Paranoia

Yes, it has set in... I'm freaking out ever since that trojan was on my comp, & now I feel like everyone is out to get me. Like, what? I really have important stuff on my computer. All I know is if I find out who gave it to me...I'm going to have to kick someones a**.

Works not so bad anymore. Just those 8-8 shifts get really long & I'm so worn out by Sunday night that I can't even think. So last night I went to bed at like, 10:30 & at 11:10 Bob comes in turning on the light making a bunch of noise...looking for the kitty that he swears he doesn't even like?! I was SO pissed! Believe me...he heard quite a few obsenities. Man. That was SO rude. He really needs to find a damn job & get off my nerves. He's talking to the guy about the job that he was supposed to have before we moved here right now, so we'll see what happens. Please, please, please...:whyme

It's rainy & I'm so glad. We have no A/C & it was 100 yesterday & really humid. Thank God I was at work I air conditioning. When this really hot weather is done I'm gonna be really glad! Too bad I'm not used to Wisconsin winters anymore & I'm gonna be freezing my tushies this winter & griping about that too.

I miss Colorado & my old job & my friends...but I really don't miss that house we were living in. So far the only good things about moving here is that our house & yard is nicer, & I really love being by my sister. Hopefully when Bob gets a job we will be able to buy things we need like mini blinds & another car, & a dryer...then things will get better. I mean, lifes not all about money, I know that, but it does make things a lot easier.

I wish I could find one of those tele-commuting jobs. That would be really nice. Oh well, whatever. I better go, Bob will be home to fight with me any minute. So I should prepare for that. :confused

Posted by Jewels at July 29, 2002 10:04 AM

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